So I have Bell's Palsy. Great... Basically, I can't control the muscles on the right side of my face. The right side of my lips don't move when I smile. I can't close my right eye. My right cheek feels weird. I have no taste. I think the symptom that bugs me the most is the lack of taste. Anyone eat paper when they were a kid? Yep... everything tastes like I'm eating paper. Bleh! The sad part is that I bought myself Ben & Jerry's on the way home from the hospital as comfort food. I can't taste it!! THAT SUCKS!
I am on Prednisone. Even better... The first 5 days, I take 60 mg in 2 doses. The next 5 days 40 mg in 2 doses. The next 20 in 2 doses... then 10 mg in 1 dose. Then I'm done. However, Prednisone makes you extremely irritable, hold water and want to eat everything in sight. So I have 20 days of hell. Neat.
About an hour ago, I got so angry, that I called my Mom sat on my bedroom floor and cried. She took this crap for 35 years on and off, so she knows. I feel so sorry for her now. I never knew. I mean... I knew. I just didn't understand.
I think that under these conditions, I need to step back from PWOC. That's right. I'm done. I don't think I can do it. The anger... the lack of feeling my face. I'm done. I've had enough. I surrender.
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